He who laughs in the now lives best

Our wish list for the time we have left

  • A couple fulfills long-held wishes after a harrowing diagnosis
  • An encouraging book that combines sufferer and family perspectives
  • For readers of Find a Beautiful Star in the Sky, Give the Boys Two Kisses, and This Stupid Heart
  • BUY IMPULSE: "I don't want to put off fulfilling my dreams anymore, and I want to hear from the authors about how they fulfilled the items on their bucket list."

A profound answer to the question of what really matters in the end


"You will die. Not today, not tomorrow, but you don't have more than five years left!" When Karoline Nuckel's doctor says this sentence, all seems lost. But what does it mean to be confronted with your own finiteness in your mid-thirties? How should she lead her life from now on? Her partnership? What about her dreams and plans?
Karoline Nuckel and her life partner Samad Berdjas decide to live intensively and put check marks on their wish list: they buy a house because they have fallen in love with the hovel. They confront never having children together and rejoice in their intimate relationship with Samad's daughter from a previous relationship. They eat goose legs with dumplings and finally take their dream trip. And they talk about the inevitable questions: Can we stand it? What comes next?
The book is a plea for life and provides answers to questions we all have to face.

"I can do that later, too." Samad and I strike this sentence from our thoughts, because what are we actually waiting for? Karoline Nuckel

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  • Publisher: Knaur HC
  • Release: 21.08.2023
  • ISBN: 978-3-426-28631-9
  • 240 Pages
  • Authors: Karoline NuckelSamad Berdjas
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Karoline Nuckel Samad Berdjas He who laughs in the now lives best
Portrait von Karoline Nuckel
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Karoline Nuckel

Karoline Nuckel wurde 1985 in Schleswig-Holstein geboren. In Göttingen und Frankreich studierte sie Literatur- und Kulturwissenschaften. Währenddessen war sie beim deutsch-französischen TV-Sender ARTE in Straßburg tätig. Sie schrieb regelmäßig für das ARTE-Magazin in Berlin, wo sie mit ihrem Lebensgefährten Samad Berdjas und dessen Tochter lebte. Karoline Nuckel starb im April 2024 an den Folgen ihrer Krebserkrankung.

Portrait von Samad Berdjas
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Samad Berdjas

Samad Berdjas, Jahrgang 1981, studierte Kommunikationswissenschaften in Berlin und Mexiko, anschließend promovierte er. Heute engagiert er sich im Berliner Kompetenzzentrum BQN für mehr Diversität in der Verwaltung. Mit seiner Tochter lebt er in Berlin.